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F.O.C.U.S.

Posted in Magic with tags , , , on May 15, 2013 by Ezikiel

There are many systems designed to teach you how to apply energy work and understanding to your rituals.  Some learn better through stories, some through example, some through practical hands on application of their craft.  Rarely, there are those that intuit their process, and it works just fine for them without ever trying or practicing.  I am not one of those.

I had to develop my own system of energy work, and without going into too many boring details of how to apply visualization and programming to energy constructs, I would like to at least start off by explaining a bit about the baseline assumptions made about energy work.

First, that it is malleable.  This is a base assumption of most of the magical community.  I saw it is an assumption, because while we can prove that energy in fact exists, and we can direct it to a degree, there is hardly any empirical evidence to prove that humans are capable of consciously changing the direction or nature of raw forces.  I say this to play devil’s advocate, in some ways– but to also make sure we are all on the same page.  The only reason that magic works is because we are changing how we perceive and interact with the objective universe by filtering it through our subjective perception matrix.  The human consiouness is also known to catagorize information based on pre-conceived notions of survival.  If you want to believe that something is not a threat to you, then you will see it as harmless (a fact that nature takes advantage of by programming us to see baby creatures as “adorable” and thus harmless), and this same shifted perception can work against us.  Just be aware.

Another assumption that some make in the magical community is that there is a “source” or “well” of energy.  Regardless of your own cosmological structure, you should be well aware of the conventions that rule your order of the universe, and know that not every one will use the same concepts as you to perceive their universe.  When having discussions I see this all the time, where instead of talking about the similarities of cultures, or comparing their ideologies, people argue over the semantics that govern the differences in their spiritual practices.  Remember the Golden Rule– Don’t be a dick.  As long as you keep this one in mind, and stop the petty pedagogical pissing contest, we can all have a good conversation. 😉

While there are many systems of training, there are some people that argue “all spirituality is the same, it leads to the same destination.”  I hate to piss in your cheerios, but this is simply not true.  The concepts of enlightenment are not a concept most people practicing a spiritual path seem to care about.  In fact, some are using their spirituality to simply be better people, others to be successful in business, even others to honor their ancestors, and every paradigm has different customs and assumptions of what is important and how to act as a “good person.”  It is ridiculous to assume, with all of the different types of people and paths along our own journeys, that we really have anything in common other than our human nature (which some will even contend that point, so you see what I mean?).  If you are having a spiritual conversation, see point two on the clarification of things, state your own understanding, and allow others to do the same.  Then, using your critical thinking skills (cue: scary dramatic music) to asses the similarities and disparities, and use that as a starting point.

Now that I have done all that explaining, allow me to divulge my big secret to personal energy work, and it’s success.  I just focus.  Confused?  Allow me to extrapolate.

Focus is an acronym.  It stand for Free, Order, Concentrate, Understand, and Sense.

This simple tool is how I remember all my necessary steps.  First, to free the mind.  Breathe, allow yourself to relax, and stop the worry or unnecessary tension.  Then, order your thoughts, and while relaxed begin to move on to step three.  COncentrate on your goal, being at this point to build your tension, and as you concentrate on what needs to be accomplished, move to step four.  Understand how energy works (in your perception).  For me, Energy follows Will, which is navigated by Thought and Emotion.  Move the will, and the energy will follow.  Understand that this process is automatic, and allow it to work for itself.  The final step, to sense, is to make sure you are still in a good place.  Sense yourself, make sure you are grounded, calm, and conscious.  

With this simple process, I complete most all of the complex constructs of my meditations, rituals, and even interpersonal interactions.  I also use this during my classes, study sessions, and conversations, to make sure that my emotional reactions are justified and moderated.

I hope this clarifies a few things, and if you have any questions, please feel free to contact me. 

 

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Being the Embodiment

Posted in Magic with tags , on July 6, 2012 by Ezikiel

It isn’t so new of a concept. In fact, almost every world religion has an idea of stepping into your spirituality- becoming the Archon of your own faith and power. With most, it is simply accepting your responsibility in the grand schemes of the universe, and being willing to act in a manner that benefits others as much as yourself. To most, this simple concept comes down to one thing- live your life the way you want, and spread joy with your interactions with others.

For the Embodied, we take this to a whole new level, where we are seeking an awareness deeply recessed into our own consciousness. Through the Vampiric community, There is a concept called Zephy’r. This is based almost entirely on the concept of Xepher, re-introduced by the temple of Set (and all of their amazing scholars), from the Eqyptian culture. Xepher is evolution, manifestation of the potential of the Self. It is often used in magical traditions to symbolize the awakening of the Inner divinity, and has much the same connotations in the OVC and Otherkin crowds. While it is often seen in religious context, it does not really have anything to do with a particular theology. Religion and Spirituality can be mutually exclusive, but to truly manifest your own Xepher, you must find the personal balance between these two facets of life.

The Embodied are not just Otherkin, though I apply the term to my own spiritual progress, it is in fact a form of evolution. Conscious awareness and action are imperative to the evolution of the Self. It probably should go without saying, that this takes training and understanding of the self, and all facets of your personal psychology as well, but this is an often overlooked part of the process. Many people just don’t want to deal with their own shortcomings. Whether this takes the form of counseling, shadow working, Journey work, or Soul Retrieval, all of these are foundations to understanding why we do the things we do, and what our own habitual programming has done to our psyche. Incorporating all of these aspects of the self into one cohesive understanding is the foundation of the Embodied Awareness.

What does this mean, though, to people who are Otherkin/Vampires/Therian,etc.? It means three things, each that we will look at in a little detail.

Through the Awakening, you only get the barest glimpse.
When the Awakening happens, we often get so caught up in the realization of our nature and the fluctuations of energy within and around us, we overlook details. We forget that all of this should be relevant to our every day life. I have met far too many who have taken the awakening as a sign that the process is over, and that now they just have to live with the new found knowledge. Unfortunately, the awakening changes so much of our psychology and interactions socially, that it would be impossible to move forward, without also understanding the depth and breadth of those changes and effects. We are dynamic creatures, and even on a “normal” psychological level must be going through and constantly re-evaluating our relationship to the objective universe. If the Subjective universe changes our perception of the Objective, the dymanic between them has changed in such drastic ways that most psychoanalysis wouldn’t even know where to begin evaluating. Not only do you have to sort out all of the urges, spiritual imperatives, behaviors, social customs, and intrapersonal interactions, but we also have to know what this means going forward. Are we learning to be a stronger species? Are we incorporating our spiritual awareness into our daily lives? Why is this important? These are all questions that the Awakening forced me to ask, and though your situation may be different than mine, I implore you to do such exploratory self evaluation.

Just because you are Other, does not mean that you are better
This goes back to a pretty pervasive issue in the community, of “fluff”-type personalities, that use their Other side to tout how great and important they are. You aren’t. No more so than hobos on the street, or the president. Unfortunately we all have equal footing in the cosmic scheme of things. We are either Gods of our own reality, or we are the victims of an uncaring ebb and tide. Only you can decide which that is, and blasting all over the interwebs that you are the sparkling reinvention of a great and powerful being isn’t going to accomplish a damn thing, except maybe piss off the people who know what they are doing. Hint, if you don’t have to work for it, you are not likely to have it handed to you. Need I say more?

Understanding the Lore of your Kin is necessary
Who the hell thinks that just because they “lived as an elf,” does not mean that you know what the hell you are talking about. Compare these sensory inputs to traditional interpretations of Elven culture. I’m talking Proto-German, Celtic, Sumerian, Etruscan, Asian, all of them. Get an idea of how the human cultures interacted with the Otherworld, and use that to refine your understanding of self. No, I’m not saying that your “memory” is bad. I’m saying that our Subconscious and spiritual selves communicate with symbols- you are looking at things through a distorted lens of symbols, hidden meanings, and interpretive visions. Don’t EVER take things at face value, question your urges, understand the root of your behaviors, and for the sake of all those of us who do our research, unless you can use something other than “because I just know!” as a counter argument, just don’t.

Essentially, don’t stop improving your understanding of the Self, remove yourself from the idea of ego, and do your research. You can do it! Really, just get off your lazy carcass and try Best of luck!

New Radio!

Posted in Introductions, Magic, Otherkin with tags , , , , , on June 15, 2012 by Ezikiel

We are starting a radio cast, through Blog Talk Radio. Currently, we are set up for a weekly, 30 minute show. Our first episode is set for June 27th, 2012, where we will do an intro show! With this show, we will be talking about who we are, what to expect from our show, and what it means to Embody your Spirituality.

You, the listener, have the chance to also call in, chat live with us, and interact through our show! We will be taking calls during the show, and answering questions every week. I will also be uploading the show notes and answers to the Vox Homunculi after the show has aired. Be sure to listen in, and keep in touch as we explore new and exciting areas of the web!

I posted a link, under “Radio” so that we all know where to go, if you don’t already follow the Vox Homunculi, or the Dusty Grimoire, please do so on facebook!

I’m super excited for this new opportunity, and look forward to keeping everyone in touch with the Vox Homunculi!

Ethics of the Oracle

Posted in Magic with tags , on May 22, 2012 by Ezikiel

I have been pondering this for a while now, trying to figure out how best to approach a topic that can be quite explosive.  If this offends anyone, you can feel free to not use my services as a Seer, Priest, or Healer, and simply take your needs elsewhere.  Otherwise, I hope that it sheds some light on my own personal understanding of Ethics, and allows my clients, friends, and family to better understand me.  First and foremost, I know that not all readings, situations, or sessions are happy and easy, or traumatic and challenging.  Most of them fall somewhere in the middle, but that still require you to approach each situation with a fresh perspective and a compassionate understanding of someones personal needs.  Your own personal understanding of their situation is irrelevant.  You are the impersonal messenger.

With that being said, my first topic of ethics is truth.  Regardless of the message, your client has a right to make an informed decision about their life.  If you hold back your interpretations because you don’t want to upset someone, then you are not an Oracle.  You are a charlatan.  You deserve to have your tongue cut out, and your own talents turned against you like razors.  Why?  Because, the client trusted you.  Because of your own personal weakness, you are not allowing someone to step onto their path of awareness knowing something they should be aware of.  You were a vessel for a message that could have saved them heartache, pain, the need to sew the tattered pieces of their life together, or the understanding of the consequences of their actions.  I saw this because I have lived it.  And, I have been on both sides of this dilemma, where saying something would obviously upset the client, but it needed to be said, anyway.  I sucked it up, and stated my message, as compassionately as possible. My part on the play is now over, and they have the option of taking this message, or not.  I did not take away their ability to choose.  Thus, I have respected my client.  I do not decide their fate, I do not manipulate their choices, I do not withhold information.

That being said, I have met so many people that have had psychics flat out lie to them.  Or, simply refuse to provide them with the information that are receiving or divining, because it is “touchy.”  It really saddens me, when people that take on the role of guides, priests, healers, and oracles, that don’t have the stones to help someone when help is obviously needed.  Perhaps you should get a different hobby, because you are obviously not a professional.  I refer to my feelings of dabblers in this article, feel free to read it. Perhaps it will help.

Secondly, in regards to ethics, it is important to understand your idea of compassion.  As an empath, it is easy for me to gauge someone’s emotional volatility, and approach certain areas of a reading/session with caution.  Do I altogether avoid those areas, because I may not be prepared for the clients reaction?  No.  I do, however, have a standard disclaimer that I use when approaching such topics with clients, it runs a little like this- “I’m going into an area that may be quite uncomfortable or difficult to address, are you prepared to talk about (insert topic, such as the death of their loved one, sexuality, their religion, etc.)?”  In doing so, I offer them a way to understand the nature of my reading, and the interpretations, and invite them to be present in the session with me.  If they decline, I will make myself notes of my impressions, and offer to make an appointment to discuss those issues, because they will need to be addressed.  They can choose to persevere through the challenges in their life with me, or with someone else, but I at least have made them aware of what needs to be worked on for the healing process to continue.

As I noted, I also write down the impressions or symbols that I am coming up with that deal specifically with this issue.  If my client does choose to come back at a later time, I can specifically address those issues, and incorporate that message into a session before any cards are drawn, or any energy work has begun.  We can have the conversation, and allow it to start mulling over in their energy field, and use the reading to actively contribute to how to use the information/or what steps to take in order to make the healing process happen.  I have found that, for me personally, this is the best approach.  For you, it may be different, but simply ignoring the issues at hand will not make for a healing experience for your client.

Thirdly, it is important to know your own weaknesses.  Are your weaknesses going to negatively effect your session with a client?  Do you work better in a group, do you work better alone?  Are you able to concentrate in locations that are not your office?  Are you uncomfortable working with certain “types” of people?  Know the answers to these questions, and make sure that you are also saying, “no,” to their request for your services if you are not going to be able to fulfill their needs.

Not indirectly related to that, make sure that you are clear on what your clients expect from you.  Are they wanting to get a simple divination of their future?  or, are they wanting you to perform a magical panacea to cure their loved ones?  I have a brochure that I review with new clients (and let them take with) that details how I work, and what a session with me is generally like.  I let them understand the general time frames, and the options for additional services provided with, and additional to, the service they approach me for.  This way, if something does come up that requires a service I offer for a fee, they know what to expect from that service.  Often, I will also offer them self help information (for free) and leave the option open for them to return for other paid services.

Fourth, on my list of ethics, is the matter of coin.  Lot’s of people get butt hurt over “charging for services of a magical nature,” because there are really no guarantees.  I wrestled with my ideas of this subject for a long time, and have come to very interesting (in my opinion) conclusions.  I first had to understand if my guidance and akills could be used to help people.  How did I do this?  I took a job on a tarot line, where I am paid to offer my services.  Granted, I am not being compensated directly by the clients on this line, but they are returning time and again, and requesting me.  This proves to me that they feel I am helping them.  My services are valuable to them.

That being said, I’m not a martyr.  I do not sacrifice everything I am and believe in, just to benefit others.  I need to make a living, and my time and effort deserve compensation for the services that I offer.  Am I going to charge so much that I am excluding entire demographics from me? I certainly hope not!  I considered charging by the hour (like most psychics), and what my bottom line would be (with my current debts and needs financially) to match my overhead, and offer a profit margin that I could sustain my quality of life with.  And I kept in mind, that as I start out, I most likely will not have  consistent weekly (or even bi-weekly) appointments.  In order to calculate my cost, I figured that my main source of income would be the Tarot readings, and made those my base.  Consider for a moment, my monthly budget (what I need to survive and not spiral into debt) is roughly $1,200.00  This includes my debt, my current payments, and the overhead of my business.  I considered taxes, with the state of Idaho, around 20%, and divided that number by the ideal number of clients per day, for an average 5-6 day work week.  My number came out to about 40 clients, paying 25-30 dollars per session, on a weekly basis.  I figured that this price was more than fair, since (even in the Boise area) I know of a couple psychic that charge up to $100.00/per 30 minutes for readings.

Am I judging them, because of their prices?  Maybe a little.  Do I want to be making 200.00 dollars an hour for a full time business, working up to 60 hours for my own business (that would equal about $12,000.00 per week, for those not following math), of course I do.  Why don’t I charge as much as everyone else?  Honestly, because I feel that I don’t need that much money.  I would be making enough to live  comfortably by doing 40 readings a month at the 25-30 dollar range, and if my goal is to do that in a week of work?  I rest my case.  I’m charging for my services so that I can continue to provide them.

You may come to your own conclusions, but these are mine.  I hope this article was able to help you understand my approach to ethics, and being a Priest, and healer.

Concepts of Embodied Spirituality

Posted in Embodied, Magic, Otherkin, Wordy intellectual material with tags , , on May 22, 2012 by Ezikiel

I had gotten a few questions this last week about the Embodied nature.  Perhaps I have been a little vague on that front. I have several posts that explain what it is, but nothing about how to achieve it.

Since I recently posted about the awakening, I thought this would be a great topic to jump into next, because it is the ideal state of being for the self aware. There are aspects of the Embodied state that mimic other forms of spirituality. Yes, there is an essence of living in the now, and being fully present in the moment. Yes, there are concepts of evolution, and manifesting spirituality, and following a path of expanded awareness.  Yes, you will be challenged and stretched beyond your imaginations.  Yes, you will need to travel beyond the veil to see the extents of the subtle universe.

How, though, do you accomplish this? How does anyone manifest their true self in the here, while still holding onto their sanity?

First and foremost, you will need to understand yourself as you are now.  In this moment, what do you look like, how do you perceive yourself?  What does it mean to be you? Take the time to contemplate these things, and make sure that you are writing them down.  Be as objective as possible, and look at your past, and your present, to find the core of your rationality.  I do this exercise often (about once every three months or so) as a guage of how I have changed from my previous perceptions.  What decisions were pivotal in creating who you feel you are?  What path in life have you taken?  What do you want to manifest as you go forward?

Having clear and concise goals is important.  Not only are they milestones of your achievement, but when they fail (as they tend to do, when not pursued whole-heartedly) you can understand why they failed.  Were you not taking into consideration your own real weaknesses and strengths?  Is that failure because of your own inaction?  What does it mean to fail yourself, and capsize your Will in the Aetheric sea?  Are you able/willing to continue reaching for those desires, or has your perception of self changed enough to alter your desires as well?  When I do feel the melancholy of my own failure, I strive to understand why this failure happened.  I try to know if my own weakness was the reason for my failure.  If it was, what then can be done?  How do I change myself and my subjective universe enough to succeed?

Once I have my observations on paper, I analyze my actions, every step along my path.  I do this, not to judge myself, but to understand why the Self needs to change; however, the actual act of changing the self requires acceptance.  Accepting the self for who you are now, and being willing to map out my own personality enough to Embody the self that I desire.  I have a precious few tools to make this happen, allow me to express how I use them (and how you can, as well) for myself and my clients.

Tarot

Fig. 1.a

I use a specific spread to understand the current dynamics of my self. I call it the Pentagram.  Once you see the basics, I’m sure that you, my gentle readers, will understand the significance of the elemental correspondences enough to know what each quadrant of the reading means, and how to interpret it- but, for those of us that like to know my own musings and enjoy my pedantic rambles, I’ll go into detail!  Each card represents a significator in this reading.  In each elemental correspondence (Aether, Air, Fire, Water, Earth) directly correlates to the state of mind of the individual in relation to that energetic balance.  Cards 1, and 2 relate to the Aether, or spiritual aspects of self; 3 and 4 relate to the Earthly/material aspects; 5 and 6 relate to Water/emotional; 7 and 8 relate to Air/the intellect; and finally 9 and 10 directly relate to the Fire/desires of the individual.  Using this spread, I can find where the person I’m reading for is expending their energy, and where it is lacking.  It also gives me steps and ideas on how to bring balance back to the individual.

Of course, if you are comfortable doing so, you can even use additional cards to branch off of areas that need focus in order to further understand where this blockage originates, and how to work past it.  With my clients, I have done everything from Psychic surgery to extended discussions about the origin of pain and suffering.  In rare cases, I refer clients to a specialist of psychiatry, massage, an herbalist, etc in order for them to actually benefit from the messages of the cards.  If you are doing this for yourself, make the distinction of what you can take on by yourself, and when to address the issues with professionals.

If the issue is something that can be dealt with through Pathwork, I coach my clients on what this process involves, and what it means to Journey outside of the body.  Definitely, the benefits of reaching through the other worlds in innumerable, when you can contact entities to work with, confront the shadow self, make use of the Library, connect with past lives, or even perform their own astral rituals to benefit their state of being. Of course, there is much more that can be done from this type of vantage point, and sometimes even be a truly healing experience in it’s own right.

If the issue is something that can be helped through energy work or Psychic surgery, I make sure that the client (or myself) is aware of what the process involves, and allow them to make an informed decision (especially if it is myself…) on if that would be their preferred method of treatment.  Certainly, having an Energy worker help to repair tears in the Aetheric body, bring balance back to your energy, or even remove blockages for you is a process that can be beneficial, but the client still needs to work to understand the changes of their energy, and how to work with the energies the gain in benefit from such treatments.  Sometimes, if not done properly, the emotional scars can become “infected,” in a way, that renders any further healing useless.  It is a fine line between balance and self destruction.

What does all of this have to do with the  Embodied consciousness?  In order to manifest the true self, we must first know the self in it’s most harmonious state.  Using techniques, like the ones above, can bring our awareness into focus and align it to the Will.  From this state, we are able to better channel our own repressed self and integrate the Shadow of our cognitive awareness, and further propel the Client along the path they are seeking.  PLus, there’s no sense in cleaning a kitchen with a decrepit sponge.

So, going forward, now that we know these steps, and possible ways of executing change in our lives, what does it mean to be Embodied?  Are we simply meat vessels of a higher consciousness, and manifesting that higher consciousness is our main objective?  No.  We are the Embodied, we are the Others that manifest the Will of our species on the earth.  We are the voices, loud and clear, of what it means to be a Demon, an Elf, or even a Vampire.  We are the success inherent in modern spirituality, and we use the memories, skills, and power of our Kin to show the world how important we are to it’s future.

We are the Embodied.

The Awakening- an understanding

Posted in Magic with tags on May 21, 2012 by Ezikiel

I have wrestled with this topic for some time, and finally decided to sit down and write out my conclusions.  Thus far, I have found that the Awakening (or, and I like to sometimes call it, that groggy almost knowing period between not knowing a damn thing, and having some idea of what it means) is a process of becoming enlightened to the nature of one’s self.  Yes, it does have more connotations with the Otherkin/Vampire community, but it also directly correlates to any spiritual or mundane process of seeking answers.  The Awakening is merely the question we ask ourselves.

This in mind, it should be noted that not all of the aspects of the awakening are pleasant. It can be a grueling experience, especially for those (like myself) who feel that so much change has happened and yet there is so much more that will come about.  We want the more now, and we want it to be amazing!  This is really a generational flaw, where our appetite for change was fostered early, and we never got to appreciate the in between periods.  You’ll be happy to know that it can be fixed with a lot of patience, and a really snazzy blog.

Back on track- the Awakening is not something that just happens overnight- although it can seem that way.  Something spiritual happens, and we embrace a whole new paradigm, where the impossible exists, and we are a part of it.  That in and of itself is a huge revelation!  You’ve officially become a new person, on a journey of epic proportions.  You now have to understand where in that subjective reality you fit- are you religious? Do you strive to understand yourself?  Do you have morals?  What do Ethics mean for you?  What is your idea of a “spirit?” Who are you? What are you? Do you believe in psychics? Are you psychic? Does this change the way your friends and family see you?

As you can see, the questions go on.  There aren’t any easy answers to them, but that is where the discovery comes in.  I like to call this phase, “Cup of coffee #1,” where you sit down and realize the basics of your universe.  Are any of these questions going to change your life? Absolutely.  Are they going to make it easier?  Most likely, not at first.  In the long run, yes- you will be able to look yourself in the eye and say, I believe this, because of my experience.  The Universe proved to me it’s existence.

Yes, you have awakened to a new world, of shiny idols, Old Gods, and subtle realms just beneath our perception.  Does it do you a damn bit of good? Not in the slightest, unless you do something with this knowledge.  Consider with me, the Dabbler.

The Dabbler is an all too pervasive menace to the world of spiritual practitioners.  This is the type of person who believes that magic is alive (bonus) and does everything they are told (getting sketchy) by one book (F***ing seriously?) and if it even resembles working (subjective) they deem themselves a witch, and proclaim their awesome might to change the universe (where’d I put my sword, I’mma cut a hoe!).  While the Dabbler may find peace and solace in their umbrella understanding (or lack there of) of paganism, they never really change themselves, or manifest a healed persona.  They are a broken subculture, in an already largely misunderstood minority.  They may have “awakened” to the possibilities of spirituality, but they choose not to grow with it.  They simply light a candle to help boost their concentration, and don’t even bother bringing that same light into themselves to understand why they need a candle. What is it about magic that forces us (when it works) to deal with our own shortcomings and become a stronger, more reliable force in our own right?  Is it because we actively try to better ourselves, so that we are worthy of our own skin?  I’ll take that as a yes.

The Dabbler, however, does not want to become self aware.  They do not wish to grow, or even fight for their will.  They just want the magic pill to make the troubling times go away, and then continue on with their lecherous suckling meat bags of worthless flesh existence.  The human experience is all about being broken, and put back together.  You fight for survival, whether that means you till the soil and plant your harvest until your hands bleed so that you can eat, or you get your degree to open doors to having a better life.  Either way, you struggle, you sweat, you suffer, and you prosper because of it.  Magic is the essence of our nature-  we use it to draw the strength of character to study, the will to work hard, the desire to achieve more, and the understanding of our own humility.  Yes, we can channel those energies into achieving our desires.  Does that mean that by working a simple (or complicated) ritual, a new Lexus will appear in our drive way? No.  We are simply trying to allign our will, with the universe, and then taking the necessary steps in order to create a self fulfilling prophesy.

Still with me?  Awesome, now, to let you know how this applies to the Awakening.  The Awakening is simply becoming aware of the Will.  Focusing your Will, actively bettering yourself, and making an informed decision about your course of actions are the only ways to achieve magical success.  Now, consider this in light of the idea of Otherkin and Vampires.  We awaken to a wholly different concept of self perception, needs and impressions that make us rell in misunderstanding for who knows how long, only to find our answers and self awareness!  What do we do with it? Seek out other people, lose ourselves to a herd mentality that would make Jeffery Dahmer giggle, and pretend like that is enough to make us happy.

For some, sure, it could work.  For those like myself, who know there is so much more to this incarnation than my skin and boner, it most certainly is not acceptable to stop growing just because I found someone else also on the path.  Do I want people around me that know what it is like? Of course..   The Awakening opens our eyes, but unless you actually look around at the world, and take those steps into the unknown, you will just keep staring at the same scene forever.

The world requires struggle in order to survive.  Yes, it can be difficult.  Yes, you might fall and break a leg. No, you will not be coddled. Without the will to persevere, you are nothing but a dabbler at life.